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Born 1976 in Tokyo. Editor. As Representative Director of Tokyo Pistol Co., Ltd., an editing and designing company, he covers a wide field from corporate branding, advertising, and web designs. His current major interest is "Neetnik" an information site for NEETs (Not currently engaged in Employment, Education or Training).

Krash Eyes

The Solitary Journey of a Youth

People often praise me as being "social," but that is actually not true. I used to find it very difficult to socialize. It was particularly horrible when I was in my twenties. Back then, I could not speak to a girl. While I zealously read and studied articles like ʻHow to Lose Your Virginity' featured in popular magazines like "POPEYE," I became tense the moment I was alone with a girl. I just could not communicate with the opposite sex. Therefore, as you would expect by now, I was never popular with girls.

So, being young, I decided to set out on a journey. The landmark of youth: "the search for myself." Mine was, however, not a "journey around the world" or even "a journey around Japan." It was a five day trip of western Japan using the Seishun 18 Kippu (A five-day-pass that allows unlimited travel on the Japan Railway). That was it. Kinosaki→Tottori→Kurashiki→Dogo Onsen→Kochi→Kyoto. I ended up with such an itinerary trying to pick places I had never been.

Being a worshiper of Beatnik, I made no reservations, carried no sleeping bag, and set out with a notebook and several paperbacks packed in my bag. At Tottori station, where I arrived via Kinosaki on the last train, being short in cash, I spent the night on the floor of the station yard. An aimless journey, indeed! I jotted down poems a la Japanese-made Ginsberg on the cold linoleum floor or wandered about the dark and empty station like some suspicious person to while away the time.

However, it took only a few hours before I became totally homesick. There were too many mosquitoes distracting me from sleep and it was terribly lonely. I called a friend from a pay phone by the Kiosk and continued annoying him with my whining. Looking back at it know, I think that the twenty old me acted way too cowardly!

Having had enough of sleeping in the open, I learned to take my rest while traveling on the train. My journey was simply riding trains. I watched the scenery change from the its windows and missed my mother's cooking while watching the setting sun.

I ended my journey in Kyoto. When I was aimlessly walking the downtown district in heavy rain, a woman (who appeared to work at a nightclub) called out to me from her car. The sight of me wandering in the rain without an umbrella must have caught her attention. She gave me a lift to a cheap inn and handed me an envelope as she said good-bye. Inside the envelope was five thousand yen. Extremely touched, I wept.

The social person I am today is anxious to thank her. I wish to say "thank you" from the bottom of my heart.